OK, I don't know what's wrong with me anymore. I just can't run. Last year I did great, setting personal records for every race. This year, every race is a struggle. I just don't feel good. Take today for example. Me and the Mrs. headed out for the Race For The Cure Seattle, me running the 5K race and she doing the 1 mile walk (go Mrs!).
There's this little ditty that we sang as kids that goes something like this:
Get up in the morning, put my feet on the floor;I woke up at 5:50 and basically spent the next 2 hours and 40 mins on the crapper. I somehow survived the drive downtown (no traffic thankfully) but ran out of the car looking for a place. This shit is getting old. It happens every race day like clockwork. On top of that I forgot to take my inhaler so my lungs weren't clean. So basically about half way through the race, I'm wheezing and I feel like puking. And my pace isn't anywhere close to what I did last year. I did set a personal course record but I wasn't even close to my best time of this year.
50 yard dash to the bathroom door.
Next week I'm running a half marathon. 13.1 miles. Ten miles farther than today. I'm really nervous about it...it may be my worst HM ever.
I don't know if I have what it takes anymore...too many nagging injuries and resurgent asthma is really killing me, not to mention my IBS.
Once I'm done with the races in my race calendar I'm really going to start rethinking this whole thing. Right now it's not very enjoyable, I'm not getting a sense of achievement from running, just a lot of pain and disappointment.
A few years ago I trained for climbing Mt. Rainier, and that gave me a lot of purpose and satisfaction. It's probably too late to train for a major climb this year but I'd like to get into it again.